Best Selling Author | Facilitator | Women's Mentor & Multi Award Winner | Birth Trauma Facilitator in training @ Australasian Birth Trauma Association | Mum of 3 & Your New Mumma Besty
AND THIS IS MY STORY
As a child, I was the 'drama queen'. The eldest, always needing 'attention'.
Too much, you know that one?
I created a mask of an achiever yet inside I never saw my true worth; spending years climbing the corporate ladder & chasing financial gain yet every time I reached the goal or acquired the ‘things’ I was never fully satisfied.
After becoming a mother, my husband felt like a roommate & I resented him for his life not changing, whilst I took on many more balls to juggle & tried to make sense of who I was becoming whilst trying to navigate a career I loved & everything else!!
I continued to show the perfect façade because everyone called me #supermum & asked ‘how do you do it all’. I wore this as a badge of honour however inside I was anxious AF, with low self esteem & never knew what self love truly meant.
I had no confidence or self respect, plagued with #mumguilt because I was supposed to LOVE every minute of this chapter, right?! I had everything I ever wanted, so why was I miserable, anxious & wishing for someone to come & save me?
In a desperate bid of escapism, I threw myself into my government career hoping it would fix my inner turmoil. It helped mask the fears, anxiety & overwhelm for a while, until.. our third child was born.
The birth was traumatic. I was broken, physically, mentally, emotionally. I didn’t realise at the time, but that moment was my snap point. It became my opportunity for a completely different life; a homecoming to myself & an opportunity to align with my higher self & purpose.
From there I began writing as part of my healing, accessed alternate modalities & trained as a professional life coach having accessed deeper meaning, healing & awareness for myself.
Finally, I had answers to my suffering. I saw everything so clearly, as though a mirror to all the parts of myself that I didn't even know existed but were playing out & determining my everyday experiences.
I began to feel free. Content. Present. Emotionally stable.
I had had enough of being a victim, being anxious, blaming others & lapping up drama, so I committed to myself for the very first time & because of this I can proudly say I am the woman I always desired to become - my life is now full of meaning, joy & purpose, thriving relationships with myself & others, confidence, compassion, self-love & respect. Gosh I could go on & on....
But it didn't happen overnight.
It took a moment of courage, gaining clarity around what life I truly want to live, who I want to be & releasing the fear of 'If I ask for help that means I'm weak' just enough to be vulnerable & ask for support.
And by seeking support, I began to slowly let down the walls I had built up for so long, and the armour accompanying them.
And finally, the relationships with those around me began flourishing.
My children now get the best me. My husband gets the best of me, and best of all I get the best of me!!
My work doesn't feel like work AT ALL. EVER.
I've owned my inner drama queen, my authenticity & can now use my voice for greater good - inspiring others to do the same, and live authentically aligned with their truth, enjoying more balance, freedom, peace & thriving connections!!
There is no ROI greater than putting ourselves as mothers first (in this instance).
I see you. I was you. You can do hard things & be vulnerable. I'm here to support you. It is totally woerth it.